My new blog address

Hi friend,

I have decided to continue my blog on another address as I do not quite like this blogger :)

You are most welcome to visit me here :
https://fullybygrace.wordpress.com/

A Son Is Leaving Home

One of my sons is leaving home tomorrow. This is now the second one to leave the nest. How does it feel? Though words may be able to describe it, you need to experience it yourself to understand it.

When my first one was leaving, my dominant thoughts were towards God. It went something like this :

"O God, this son is Your son before he became mine. You have given him to me for a season to care for him, to teach him, to nurture him. I know I have not been a perfect parent, but You know that I have done the best I could.

Now the time has come for me to release him. He can no longer be under my watchful eye anymore. The chains now has to be cut. The door now has to be opened. I free him and give him back to You. Henceforth, he will be directly under Your care, Your protection. Thank You for the opportunity and the priviledge for the work of parenting him which you have entrusted to me."

I have recently been asked by someone what is my goal/ambition for my child. I only have one goal and desire for each of time. That their lives will bring glory to God. That they may lead their lives fully under His guidance, that they daily walk with Him. That they fulfill what God meant them to be. That they know Him and walk with Him.

Christian parents are given such a priviledge, to be the spokesperson for God, Who is their true eternal Parent when the child still did not know Him.

Parenting is never easy. What more when we ourselves are so imperfect in many of our ways. We have so many struggles of our own. Yet, what is truly amazing to me is that when my heart desires God's will for the children, He works out all for good in spite of all my failures! How could we not but adore such a God!

The Scripture tells me that the descendants of the righteous will be blessed. What is the greatest inheritance and treasure we can leave to our children? Houses and lands? Condos and cars? Gold and silver? Perhaps high moral teachings? Excellent knowledge? A thriving business? Grandmother's recipes :)?

Yes, we have so many things we would desire to leave for our children. But these only pales to be insignificant and meaningless 'treasures' as compared to a inheritance of faith in God. For when we leave them the inheritance of God Himself, we have given them everything. I desire nothing less for them.

Questions Of A Pilgrim

I find it so important to ask questions. There are so many type of questions we ask in life, don't we? From insignificant questions like "What should I eat for lunch?" to more important questions like "Which course should I pursue?" to even very important question such as "Whom shall I marry?"

I, and many of us, rate the importance of a question to the importance of the answer to us. I mean, it obviously is less important, or has less consequences to our life, the answer to what I should eat today as compared to the answer to what course should I pursue in college.

From this half a century that I have lived on this earth, I surely have asked a numberless amount of questions. I find that the questions that have been the most defining questions I have asked in my life really pertains to God and the invisible Kingdom of God..

The questions are defining because they really does something to me, to my growth as a person, as a soul. All the other questions may do something to my temporal and visible life in the body, but adds nothing to my soul.

It is not so much the questions, but the answers that really are defining for me. In asking questions, I find answers. Some answers had been slow in coming, some almost immediate. Each time an answer comes, it liberates me. It increases the strength of my soul. It gives me a deeper perspective, a true-er understanding. And thus I began to understand Jesus' words, "And you shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free."

When I was a young teenager new in church, I never asked any important questions. I just adopt wholesale whatever I heard in church, or read in any Christian books. I had a tremendous desire and hunger for spiritual truths and would read all sorts of books with promising titles.

What I heard, I just churned out, even teaching others too. I had not really asked. I was not taught to ask questions, just believe. So, whatever little nagging doubts I had, I just brushed them aside.

I mean, it would be so, err..out-of-place to ask questions when every one seem to be singing hallellujah and I..err were not really feeling all-joyful. So, I also tried to 'prep' myself by singing hallelujah along. And on the surface, many a times, it did work. My emotions are lifted up and all is fine.

But, really, the little doubts and questions remains buried for a season. There is little increase in the joy of the spirit though there may be an ease, a temporary 'lifting-up' of the emotions before I would need the next 'service'.

I have since learnt that my emotions may be moved, but it must not be my aim to be 'feeling lifted up', 'feeling spiritual', 'feeling near to God' etc. Emotions are good but they are to be my servant, not my master. Indeed, it can be dangerous for me to focus of how I feel. Emotions can deceive and has deceived me before.

A person kneeling down before a statue (I have read of such) was so overwhelmed with emotions with tears streaming down her face. A person watching a great concert can feel so lifted up that all the blues went away. But what does it do the the spirit of the person? Mainly untouched.

I discovered that being a woman, I can be rather emotional. Easily moved by emotions, up and down (and don't men sometimes find that exasperating??). As a child of God, I must not allow my emotions to rule me. I must not act according to how I feel. Rather, I must act by faith in who God is and what He has said and let my spirit (in union with God's Spirit) leads.

Anyway, back to questions. I discovered that I only get answers when I seriously desire an answer. When I come to God and ask Him my question. AND wait for Him to answer. Some answers are so unexpected. Some answers over time was revealed bit by bit. But every answer is significant.

How does asking spiritual questions benefit us and society? How does it help those in need? There is a statement made that some are so heavenly minded that they are of no earthly use.

Actually, nothing is further than the truth! He who would live life most beneficially for the sake of others is he who can see what life truly is and is not. He is one who knows the answers to life's questions and meaning and expresses it in his daily living.

But first, he needs to ask serious questions and seriously seek for the answer.

God's answers always satisfies. Direct every honest question to Him. There is no sincere question He does not welcome. In fact, He is delighted we ask them. Why so? Because He wants us to know the truth and be liberated to live life to its fullest.

Why I started this blog

Hi friend,

I started this blog to share my experiences and lessons I learnt taught by my heavenly Father.

I have been a Christian for more than 30 years. Lost count the number of years because I do not really know the exact time I actually was born again! Understanding dawned on me gradually. But I guess the first light of the gladness of salvation came when I was 15, in Form Three, when upon reading the Daily Bread on how God forgives us again and again, it brought a tremendous thrill to my heart.

Yet, it was at the age of 22 that I truly caught and understood what is meant by salvation in Jesus Christ, which I also intend to share sometime via this blog.

I also would like to share the dealings of God in my life, His grace and what He has taught me to understand about so many of life's issues, my convictions and beliefs.

I am greatly desirous that you, the reader, will be much blessed as you too go through life as a pilgrim. We really do need each other for the encouragement and strengthening of our faith and journey together.

This blog is meant for those who desire to seek God's will for their lives, those who wants to live as children of God in truth and not only in words. 

There are certainly many good spiritual books written by godly men and women down the ages and I am truly thankful for the lessons I have learnt from them. In fact, I learnt most of my lessons from these gifted and inspired authors and thank God for them. Truly, I view them as God's gift to the universal church down the ages for in today's church, so much of God's truth are shrouded by unbelief, human wisdom, false teaching etc.

I most welcome you to join me in discovering and learning spiritual truth together in the midst of a church that can be so confusing at times. There are so many opinions, interpretations, teachings mingles with church traditions, expectations that leaves many of us living not quite fulfilled and many a times, confusing lives.

May God be pleased to use this humble platform to bind us together. All glory to His Name.